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Friday, July 29, 2011
why do i feel like i'm not needed by you ? or wanted by you ? why do i feel like your not comming back to me again ? after all you said to me , i trust your words . and now i feel stupid . i feel dumb . i've been suffering all these past few weeks . hoping you would come back and i was wrong . are we just lost in time , i wonder is your love's the same ? i'm still not over you .
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Life's not easy for me when your not apart of me . i keep thinking about you . i miss you so much . i keep going to pasir ris park . that's where i know that it still lives . i cant talk much . i really need a time alone . but what i know is i'm still gonna celebrate 28 . Alone . i gonna celebrate at T.B . There's where i feel your hug's and kisses . I'm still not gonna say goodbye .
Labels: Mariana ismaeil .
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I was happy on that day . The day where u say u would take the time
To msg me when u have the free time . It feel like eveything change
The way it wasn when we first meet . Aku rase mcm ane tak perlu dalam
Hidop kau . Aku cemberu bile aku npk org ckp aku sayang kau bodo . Dekat
Mataer sendiri . Aku pun pernah ckp . tapi nnt dia ckp aku kau per . Tapi bile
Dia ckp aku sayang kau . aku tak ckp apepe . aku dah penat cube buat mcm dulu
Tapi tak kan ak seorg kan . Ye , dulu kau ckp kau dah delete semua contact laki
Just to proof aku . Abeh skrg ? Ade juga . Razi . Aku tak kesah . Bile aku check
Handphone kau , aku bace msg . aku mcm nak ngangis . sumpah . dia msg kau tak
Blg . Cube kalau kau jadi dekat tempat aku . aku nak tau ape kau rase . Org comment
Tak blg . Aku kena tanye baru kau blg . Aku sumpah . Aku geram . Dekat public , kau
Tolak aku mcm kau besar . Aku diam diam . Sampai aku takleh tahan baru aku blg .
In the end . aku blg pun . Bile kite gado . Kau jalan . aku kena kejar . Aku boleh bet kalau
Aku jalan . kau tak akan kejar . Im tired of trying alone . I swear to god i'm tired .
I just feel like giving up . Everything u can but i cant . i tried . Aku pernah jalan
Kau tak kejar pun ! in the end . ak yang cari kau ! I feel like your hiding something
From me . u cant even remember your facebook password . Kalau kau tak simpan
Apepe . kau try ingat ah . senang . dah , aku dah penat nak type lagi .
Aku tulis ini semua sebab aku nak lupe . I know now it was all my nightmare .
Labels: The past, the present and the future .
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
It's best if i just talk to you blog . At least you wont fight back or get angry .
I feel like i'm usedless . Tak gune . Tak penting dalam hidop kau .
Aku sedih . mcm letak tepi walaupun dia ade kawan baru . Tapi aku at least tau kau
lagi happy jumpe kawan kau pade jumpe aku . That's what i feel now . Kalau kau tengah bace ni . I really really think you met someone new in ITE BISHAN . Teros terang nyer . No more keeping . Aku selame ni tahan . The last day kite jumpe . " I tau , lepas sekolah teros
balik . Kakak sendiri suroh. " now sumpah demi Allah . i trust that word . trust what u say . And now you look . Sebelum ckp kat org , tengok sendiri kat cermin . Bukan aku tak bagi , kau semalam teros ckp hujan , msg nnt . check check i msg , dah kat jumtion 8 . selagi aku tak msg , kau tak akan ckp . Jap . kau selalu betol .And now everything seems
To be my fault . Semua i ckp salah . Semua i buat salah . Now you tell me . Aku masi ingat kite jalan jalan kat tamp mall , tamp 1 ngan s.q . aku ckp kat kau " b , i takot u dah start sekolah lupe kan i . " and you said " tak akan b . i tak akan lupe kan u . i sekolah untok belajar . bukan nak mengattal " that's what you said . kite tengok sape yang mengattal okay ?"
Semalam aku tak tido . kau tau tak , aku nak sent kau msg . tapi aku tau what ever i say wont touch your heart . " bby , i know we're been up and down but your still here with me . And i'm still lucky to have you by my side trough tick and thin . I know i may not be a good boyfriend . or maybe what you wanted . Every girl dreams is to have a good boyfriend , caring , sweet , cute , handsome and so on . But i'm still trying to be perfect . I know i'm not . So no point of me telling you sweet stuff because someday later . You'll get sick and tired of listening to it . But you know what iever i do is for you right ? I know it's not easy finding some who understand's you . but i'm trying . and all yo reply is u tak berterima , u tak pernah support what i do . But i'm still trying to change . what ever happens , i know i put you infront of me and i will promise to take good care of you . And i still love you for the first day i hold your hand at pasir ris park . (swam) . "
I wanted to say but i know you wont believe . No point . Just keep to myself .
Labels: what happen to us
Monday, April 11, 2011
Its best if i just keep it to myself .
Each time i say something , u get piss off .
Then what's the point of me telling u how i feel ?
Yes ,i know i've been saying the same word and your irratated .
But seriously , i'm scared to lose you .
So it's better i keep to myself and let people know i'm a bad person okay ?
OKAY .
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I dont know what happen to ous .
I just dont understand . She's every little part of me .
If i could reach her heart . And tell her how much she mean to me
I'm sure she will stop all this shit and crap .
I keep on thinking she has an another hopping for me to asak for break
And she would go to that guy . I'm just stress . work . family and you .
Monday, March 14, 2011
hey .
I'm tired . I dont feel right . I just got no mood .
This time i really feel that your love towards me is fading .
I dont know why i've been acting like this . I'm just a usedless boyfriend .
I cant even support my girlfriend . I miss you . I'm still holding on to what i have .
And that you . I love you so much and i scared to even let you go .
Labels: Change